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Friday, March 17th, 2006
7:08 pm	"Dare I say...dramatic?" I was just sitting down to write when I got a call. Now I something better to be doing! Yay! Current Mood: tired (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 11th, 2006
10:02 pm	"...and it's Gooood." I guess I'll write while I wait for Mom to get home. We both worked tonight, so we planned on staying up when we got home and watching RENT. This last week was pretty busy, with Megan coming home, doctor's appointments, work, and parties. But I won't write long descriptions of each because unless you were there it probably wouldn't be too interesting. Work tonight was pretty average. Jenn and I worked the salad bar and the line was out the door almost all night, but it didn't seem that busy. Alright I'm off to start dinner, night. Current Mood: refreshed (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 26th, 2006
4:24 pm	No Isn't it funny how just one completely impossible, infuriating person can ruin an entire day? Current Mood: infuriated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
4:26 pm	"Tell me a story." We leave tomorrow for Florida. Dad and I are going to meet Mom and Dan at the house we've rented on Saturday. Before we meet them we're going to go look at some colleges. I got most of my packing done last night but I have a feeling I'm missing something. I'm sure as soon as we get to Boston I'll remember exactly what it is. I don't have much to write about. Second semester started a couple of weeks ago. My classes all basically stayed the same so it didn't really matter. Our last Pep Band game before the Civic Center was Friday. Our shirts came in that day so everyone matched at the game. I won't be able to go the the Civic Center but I'm sure everyone'll have a good time. Guess that's all for now, I'm gonna go get some homework done so I don't have to bring it with me. Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
6:23 pm	"Bomb-diggity" Drink down that Gin and Kerosene, And come spit on bridges with me, Just to keep us warm. Light a match to leave me be. Light a match to leave me be. I keep my jealousy close, 'Cause it's all mine. And if you say this makes you happy, Then I'm not the only one lying. x2 Keep quiet, Nothing comes as easy as you. Can I lay in your bed all day? I'll be your best kept secret And your biggest mistake. The hand behind this pen relives a failure every day. And I keep my jealousy close, 'Cause it's all mine. And if you say this makes you happy, Then I'm not the only one lying. Drink down that Gin and Kerosene, And come spit on bridges with me, Just to keep us warm. Light a match to leave me be. Light a match to leave me be. Keep quiet, Nothing comes as easy as you. Can I lay in your bed all day? I'll be your best kept secret And your biggest mistake. The hand behind this pen relives a failure every day. So wear me like a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down. I'll watch you choke. You look so good in blue. You look so good in blue. [x3] (Keep quiet, Nothing comes as easy as you. Can I lay in your bed all day? You look so good in blue. You look so good in blue.) x3 (So wear me like a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down. I'll watch you choke. You look so good in blue. You look so good in blue.) *Not much is going on. Just waiting around to go get Jesse so we can head to Battle of the Bands. Life's pretty much the same as always. Finals are next week. I wish I was a little more prepared for them than I am now. Oh well, what can you do? Anyway, I'll update more completely later...or maybe I'll forget about it and you'll get another half an entry in a month or so. Either way I'll see you later. Current Mood: pensive (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 25th, 2005
9:59 pm	Is there any need? Merry Christmas everyone. Hope everyone had a great day. My day was really nice for the most part. Dan and I went to Memere's to celebrate then headed home at 4 to open gifts with Mom and Dad. It would be even better if those two didn't feel the need to argue about EVERYTHING. Earlier they got into an argument about pants and now it's about what candy the dog just dragged all over the house. And they're not just disagreeing and talking about it. They are shouting at each other and then it becomes a personal attack of each other. Suddenly they aren't arguing about whether Grandma bought a pair of pants, they are telling each other that they are terrible people. He's "always right" and she's always "looking for a fight", neither one is willing to give at all because that would be admitting defeat. Then I have to get dragged into it. "Kate would agree with me, but she doesn't want to get on your bad side." To tell you the truth I have no idea who I agree with tonight, I was ignoring you. I'm just tired of all the yelling. Is one day of no shouting too much to ask for? Maybe the thing that bothers me the most is that they talk about little things and it becomes an argument. Then when they finally both stop (which can take awhile, because they fight over who gets the last word) and ignore each other for a minute they start talking again, like nothing happened. Only for something else to come up. It's a vicious cycle! Nothing is ever resolved. I don't want it to sound like my Christmas was horrible, because it wasn't and their arguing tonight hasn't been terrible. It just seemed to hit a nerve and I felt the need to rant. Thanks for listening/reading. Again, I hope everyone had a great holiday. Night. Current Mood: annoyed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
9:37 pm	And the Carver is - I wish I knew! I guess I'll just have to wait 23 more minutes to find out. Alright so that's when the show starts and I'm pretty sure they won't reveal it until later, but you know what I meant. Anyway, as I'm sure you've guessed, loads of things have happened (That tends to happen when you don't update for a month). None of it is especially interesting. Here's a couple highlights, off the top of my head: National Honors Society induction, after much careful planning I finally got to see Rent, we had Bonanza Xmas Party, we put together brass quartet (only now there are 8 people), I didn't get to go see Russell in the Nutcracker :(, and neither my mom's or my car have been working properly. Alright, I think I'm going to go get ready for the Nip/Tuck Season Finale. Night everyone! Current Mood: excited (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 25th, 2005
12:25 am	"You shut your dirty mouth!" I love spending time with the Wentworths. Family gatherings are so much fun. Since Memere still doesn't feel great we all headed over to Aunt Lisa's today. Dad, Dan and I got there around 1:00 and were soon followed by everyone else. The first hour was dedicated to sneaking around getting Christmas lists to/from everyone. It was great to see everyone. This was the family thing that I've been able to go to in a couple of months. Lindsey and I talked about our upcoming birthdays, and found out that we're both asking for the same thing, tickets to a musical in Boston. After removing a scantily clad Ken doll from younger kids, we all sat down for dinner. Jamie and Lindsey were both sad to hear that though they are both 21+ they were still stuck at the "kid's table". Even so, we had a good time pondering what would have happened if Jamie had been the oldest cousin. "Alright first we're gonna climb this. Then we're gonna set this on fire, then we're gonna run...with scissors." Once that was finished we moved on to discussing the Wentworth gene pool. The meal was almost finished and it looked like this was going to be the first year that we didn't have any projectile food from Mitch. Too bad Aunt Kathy took that time to bring up her underwear...oh well there's always next year. After eating we all cleaned up ("Mmm..are these scented trash bags?") and watched the football game. Mom showed up soon after that. We stayed a few more hours then came home and Mom had dinner while we watched a movie. Even yesterday I wasn't in the mood for the holidays. It just didn't seem like it was time for them yet, but I woke up this morning and it was snowing and it finally felt like Thanksgiving. It's really hard to believe that Christmas is only one month away. Well I guess I'm gonna go read now. Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Current Mood: cheerful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
9:31 pm	Just for this moment. I've been meaning to update this since States, but I didn't quite know what to say to completely describe that night. I still don't have the words to adequately explain it. States was amazingly wonderful. I thought the performance went pretty well and Russell agreed. The drum line even played Bump & Grind for the first time this season! Nothing could ruin the good mood everyone was in, even Mrs. MacDow, who decided to sit out back with us(WTF^^). Dunkies afterwards was nice, everyone put aside any disagreements they had and just enjoyed the evening. Tonight was our Marching Band Banquet. Jimmy wanted to make a poster for D so I left home early to go work on it. Once we put it together we headed to the Elks. We sent everyone over to sign it then headed in to eat. (This just in: Jesse actually dressed up and look really nice. Except the bow-tie was a little odd.) Awards were interesting tonight. We found out early in the evening that Dan Courcy was responsible for our awards; needless to say, we were worried. (Background info needed: Jimmy and I have been calling ourselves Boris and Natasha for about 2 years now.) D was going through them and he called out the "Natasha Award"...for Sarah. Dan thought Sarah was involved in it, so she got an award that had nothing to do with her. Jimmy got the "Boris Award" and I ended up with the "Where are all the trumpet solos?" award. Ah well, the mix up was a source of humor for part of the evening. In other news, I got back the last of my marching band photos tonight. I'm pretty happy about being able to complete my album. Most of them turned out really well, especially the trumpet sections pictures. And on that note, I think I'm going to go put the last of the pictures away. Night all! Current Mood: nostalgic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 28th, 2005
4:35 pm	Guess what.... State Finals are tomorrow! Current Mood: excited (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
10:34 pm	"Is that Sanford or Portsmouth?" 1. What color underwear are you wearing now? Blue  2. What are you listening to right now? My computer 4. What was the last thing you ate? fruit salad 5. If you were a crayon what color would you be? midnight blue  6. How is the weather right now? tropical.....storm 7. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Amy P. from work 8. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Smile 9. Favorite type of food? pasta 10. Do you drink? not enough to say that "I drink" 11. Do you smoke? No 12. Ever get so drunk you dont remember? Now would I remember if I had? 13. Hair color? light brown 14. Eye color? Hazel 15. Do you wear contacts? Nope 16. Single? yep 17. Favorite Month? October 18. Have you ever cried for no reason? not really 19. Last Movie you Watched? um, Lord of the Rings 20. Favorite Day of the Year? What ever day State Finals are 21. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yeah 22. Hugs or Kisses? Hmm, both? 23. Chocolate or Vanilla? both 24. Do you want your friends to respond? to what?  25. Who is most likely to respond? To??  26. Who is least likely to respond?  27. What books are you reading? Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy and Scarlet Letter 28. Piercings? ears 29. Fav. Movie(s)? Phantom of the Opera, Save the Last Dance, Austin Powers, Better off Dead 30. Fav. baseball Team(s)? Red Sox 31. Any pets? 2 dogs, Sophie and Kelsey, 2 cats, Tucker and Smokey, a hamster, and 5 fish  32. AIM ? yep 33. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? butter  34. dogs or cats? both 35. Favorite flower? um, Tiger Lily? 37. Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car? I don't really like planes 38. Right handed or left handed? right  39. How many pillows do you sleep with? three  40. Who are you missing right now? Megan and how fun she is  41. Who do you think is gorgeous? Emmy Rossum *What fun. Today was pretty alright for Monday. It didn't even seem to matter that I missed Friday, lucky for me. Rehearsal tonight was...interesting. Not many people came. We focused, for the most part, but still we didn't seem that productive. People just see what they do wrong and do nothing. Anyone could tell that D was annoyed with the fact that we did one move for 20 minutes. It was still a pretty fun rehearsal and I'm so so excited for states this week. Alright, I'm turning in for the night. Current Mood: calm (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:04 am	*Ding* Oh the drama! That's what marching band has been all about this year. I don't really know how to adequately describe it. I was thinking about this on my way up to Portland this afternoon. If I had to rate my MB years right now Sophomore year would be #1. It's number 2 that I just don't know. Freshman year was a lot of fun. I loved the show and my section, and it was great to meet new people but I didn't know anyone that well and it made adjusting harder. This year I know tons of people, I laugh all the time and I love being at anything MB related. However, there are so many things I'm dissatisfied with; our focus, our lack of improvement, the fact that people don't care, our lack of intensity, people not being able to just admit that they made a mistake, the "blame game", people's lack of dedication (especially those in positions of "power"), the fact that everything is changing and traditions are being questioned, parents and band members who feel that they have the right to do anything and everything, and the fact that no matter how much I try and some people around me try, we can't change the state of things now. And that doesn't even include the show itself. I don't know what it is, but our show is missing something. I don't mean the drill is lacking or the songs aren't interesting. It's just that we need something that makes you just sit in awe. Something like a trumpet solo beautifully performed by Mike, or a Drum Major who spins and salutes with as much passion and intensity as Megan did. Just something to make it memorable. Something that makes that show stick in your mind, something that makes shivers run up your spin and makes you so proud to be in the band. It just seems as if everyone, including D, has resigned to 1 star, to 2 stars. They are just settling. We get ones and people laugh, they don't care that we have so much potential. We could do so much more if we got our focus and just worked at it. And here we are, one week before finals, and we were a one star band yet again tonight. I don't want to settle for one star, I'm not saying I want to go to states and get all fours, to get a gold medal, or any medal. I just want to go to states and march off that field and feel that really, truly that was the best we could have put forward. Only I don't think that will be the case. Maybe the one thing our show, our band, this year has needed most was a mind set. When everyone walked into band camp I heard "We're going to be terrible this year", "This is just going to be another year of one stars" more times than I can count. It's hard to do well when you walk in thinking we're going to fail. I don't want people to get the wrong idea; that I don't enjoy myself, that MB isn't fun. That's not what I'm saying, I still look forward to MB everyday and I really, really don't want the season to end. There are so many good things about it that I love, and so many people that I love spending time with in the band. If I were to write a whole entry about all the things I love, it would be much longer than these things that have been bothering me. It's just that the things that have been bothing me are more numerous than in past years. Well now that I've had my rant I think I'm going to retire for the evening. Night all. Current Mood: thirsty (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
6:52 pm	Looking in from outside I'm finding my way back to sanity again though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there and take a breath and hold on tight spin around one more time and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace 'cause I am hanging on every word you say and even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me 'cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing is where I wanna be, yeah I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I'm trying to identify the voices in my head God which one's you let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel and break these calluses off of me one more time 'cause I am hanging on every word you say and even if you don't wanna speak tonight that's alright, alright with me 'cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to your breathing is where I wanna be yeah where I wanna be I don't want a thing from you bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off of your table to the ground 'cause I just want to be here now 'cause I am hanging on every word you say and even if you don't wanna speak tonight that's alright, alright with me 'cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to your breathing is where I wanna be yeah 'cause I am hanging on every word you say and even if you don't wanna speak tonight that's alright, alright with me 'cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing is where I wanna be yeah where I wanna be where I wanna be *I'm feeling a lot better now. I'll update more later, but right now Danny wants me to go watch a movie with him. Later everyone. Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
8:47 pm	The past two days have been terrible. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
12:04 am	"Oh good, they went home early, they don't hate us!" Just a quick update. Today was the Westbrook show, this year it was just a normal show, we went on the field for "evaluation" instead of "competition". We also had the Nasson Parade. That was even shorter than last year because we didn't stop at all to play for people, we just marched it all. Two and a half hours later we met at the school to rehearse before the show. After about 4 terrible tries we finally started to sound alright. We got there, were told that we shouldn't change on the buses anymore (someone said something to someone else and now people think it might be inappropriate) then headed to the warm-up area. D had been asked to evaluate the drum majors from each band so he ran off and left our DMs in charge. Whoa D, good idea! So after the whole band lost intensity and focus and began to talk, the trumpets decided to say something. After letting one DM know that she was technically "in charge" and didn't need the permission of everyone else to give an order, we finally ran through some of the show. We marched to the field and performed our show, and I, contrary to almost everyone else, thought we did alright. Obviously we have room for improvement, but it was better than last week, so it shows we are getting there. The gentleman who critiqued us seemed to share in my opinion, his words of wisdom were to "play through your feet" and "slow air gets you no where". Nothing we didn't know we had to work on. Once back at the buses a few of us proceeded to change anyway and then moved all of our stuff from bus #2 to bus #1. It had been decided that our bus was going to be sent back for the Homecoming Dance. The rest of the night was fun, then it came time for the bus ride home. Normally that is one of the most wonderful parts of MB shows. The bus we had was what-you-might-call overcrowded. Everyone FINALLY found somewhere to sit and after the lamest friggen cheers ever (yes, worse than last week...I know...I didn't think it could get worse either)we headed home. Now anyone who has ever been in MB can vouch that people can be very loud on the MB bus, what with singing and yelling and laughing and just having an amazing time. It seems like some members of our bus this evening, were not aware of this oh-so-crucial fact. Anyway to sum things up upon arrival at the high school Mr. Door-on asked a DM (same one as above) if the buses were really messy to which she replied "No, but that was the worse bus ride I've ever had." Soon after D was approached by a few other band member who shared in this opinion. (The best part was when Jimmy, Sarah, Nehal, Sunil, Jesse, Heidi, Katie, Kristen, Kaitlyn, Angel, Jon and I all responded with "I had a great time.") After getting annoyed/laughing about the evening we headed to Dunkies where we were met with a warm welcome. The whole night was pretty fun even if half the band is less than happy with the rest of us. However it's stuff like this that makes me wish it were last year. Night all. Current Mood: ahhh(but ok because I <3 MB) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 29th, 2005
10:44 pm	All week I've been looking forward to going to Scarborough to see Megan perform the half-time show. My mom said it was alright if I ofund some friends to go with. I mentioned it to Jimmy, Jesse, Katie, Sarah and Heidi. I didn't get an answer from most of them, but Jesse had said he'd come. Friday comes and my mom asks about the details, what time, who's going etc. I leave the room and come back only to have my dad say that he's not "thrilled" with the idea and he doesn't think I should go. They couldn't have told me that 4 days earlier when I asked? They do this all the time, wait until the last minute to tell me they don't want me to do something. :( Current Mood: really disappointed (Comment on this)
Monday, September 26th, 2005
10:19 pm	Calculator talks Alright so yet another attempt at an update. Perhaps 3rd time's the charm. It's only been 11 days since I last wrote but it seems like months have passed. Not only did we have our first football game (which went better than most of us thought it would) but this past Saturday we had our first show. What a day it was, full of all sorts of emotion; most happy and excited, but a few were sad. The day started with a suprise party for Vanessa. The look on her face when we jumped at her was priceless. I wish I could have been there to see what she thought of my gift. Jimmy and I had to leave to be at rehearsal at 2:45, that makes year 3 that I've missed her birthday. Only for marching band. We only had 3 songs to play on the field and no drill for song three. That was frustrating as ever. Once everyone got on the buses I mostly forgot about what was bothering me and enjoyed myself, as did everyone else. It really felt like the season was finally underway. I can't wait to see how my pictures came out. We got to Wells and hurried to get ready. It was so great to be in the warm-up area again. I love how everyone is so nervous and intense right before we go on the field. Our show wasn't terrible. Spy Prologue and Goldfinger went alright, and Mission Impossible certainly could have been worse (If you don't believe me, you should have been at practice earlier). We marched off, went to get out of uniform then headed back to the field. It's times like that, when everyone is going with different friends to watch the show, that make me miss Megan and everyone else who left. I think my very favorite moment of the night was when Jimmy, Jesse, and I walked back to the field with our arms around each other. I'm so grateful to have them there. Katie, Sunil, Heidi and everyone are great too, but it's nice to know I've got those two. The rest of the night was great. We got one stars across the board, but we have time to improve. Cheers were...interesting, but the bus ride home more than made up for it. Overall it was an awesome first show and I can not wait until this Saturday for show #2. In other news, my grandparents drove from Ohio and spent the night Friday. Then they flew over to Ireland. They are due back next Wednesday and that Friday Mom and Dad are leaving for South Carolina. It's their 20th anniversary so they're going away for the week. It'll be nice to see Grandma and Grandpa, too bad I'll be busy the whole time. Homecoming is next Friday so we'll be busy after school basically everyday. The school's theme is Disney movies and the junior class is doing Peter Pan. Today we made signs to hang in the gym. I'm pretty excited about working on the float, our plans look great right now. As for now I think I'm going to go read The Scarlet Letter. Night everyone. Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 15th, 2005
8:45 pm	"...you're gonna get smashed." Okay so I don't quite know what just happened. I was in the middle of an update (a rather lengthy one at that) and all of a sudden the window just disappeared. Now I don't know what happened to the update, so I guess I'll have to make a new one. Just got back from Thursday night rehearsal which was full of love, intensity (from some) and "drama", as Beth likes to call it. We have our first football game tomorrow. I'm bummed about only having 2 songs ready for it. If only everyone would focus we could get so much more done. Oh well we've gone through this before. In other news this week has been enough to make me stop pursuing an education and work at Bonanza for the rest of my life (okay, it hasn't been that bad). Speaking of, I have a bunch of homework that needs to be done for tomorrow and 3 or 4 tests to study for. Night all. Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
11:34 pm	Jane Kirton annoys the hell out of me. In other news, our first day of school was today. It was as dull as was expected. We listened to the same old people say the same old thing (you're special!). Then we headed to advisory to get the same papers we filled out last year, then had our pictures taken. After we were let out a bunch of us planned on going out to lunch. After reuniting w/ our friends that had been taken hostage by a certain class advisor we finally got to Pizza Hut. It looks like going out to lunch was a popular idea seeing as we ran into practically the whole junior class. Tonight we were celebrating Memere, Aunt Kathy and Aunt Lisa's Birthdays. All the adults went out to dinner while I stayed to watch Graham and Morgan. Dan stuck around to help, but he probably just added to the noise. It's amazing to see how big Graham is now. I can't believe he's three already. I expected to have some problems with him, but he was better than Morgan was. He kept forgetting my name though. When I was putting him to bed he kept saying, "I played with Morgan and Danny and someone else." My only complaint about the night is that pull-ups just make everything harder. Lord, give me diapers any day. Well I have to go to work in the morning so I think I'm gonna go to bed now. Night. Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
11:41 pm	It's more serious than we were first led to believe... What a day. It started out like any other day. I got up, showered, did some homework. Around 1:30 Dan and I went to Tom and Elaine's. It was the first time I've seen them since summer started. I've meant to go over, it's just that I've been busy. It was nice to talk to everyone. I hope that Canadian bloke isn't too upset about what we said. We were over there until approx. 5:17 when I got a call from Mom about work. Turns out they scheduled me for work. Needless to say, I was livid. When I got down there the schedule looked like names had been erased. But I can't very well be rude and say something. When I mentioned it Art brushed if off, so I didn't push the matter. The past few days have been nice. I drove Sam, Shelly, Kyle and Greg to the beach last night. Sarah drove down to meet us only to turn around 20 minutes later to go home. As to the activities that took place before last night I'm drawing a blank. Ah well. Tomorrow's our first Thursday night rehearsal, which other than shows are my favorite. Then Friday is my first day of school. Then depending on whether or not I can get someone to cover for me at work I'm going to Rochester to watch my cousin for the evening. Since I'm not working this weekend Mom and I are going to a craft fair one day. The other day should be spend finishing the homework that is due Monday, but I'm sure I can find something more interesting to do. Well I better go, I still have to watch that movie Jesse left me, I told him I'd bring it to him at rehearsal tomorrow. Night everyone. Current Mood: impressed (Comment on this)